Vision

To live in a world where women, who've suffered from narcissistic relationships, stop blaming themselves for their trauma and live free of self-doubt.

Self-discovery (The photo above was taken by me in LaJolla, CA). The beach has always been my happy place.

As I've worked through the last four years extricating myself from the identity of a wife and member of a controlling religious group, I've realized there must be other women feeling the same way I do. I keep thinking I'll wake up one day, walk on the beach, and feel a sense of freedom and at peace that never leaves. That was the motivation behind me leaving my husband and the religion of which I'd dedicated my life, the only community I've ever really known.

And though I fully believe physically leaving was essential for me to move forward and begin the healing process, I don't feel free. Don't get me wrong. There have been many days I've watched the waves move, dragging sand, shells, and some pain back out into the ocean.

However, the deep caverns cut into my psyche have been not healed and some days those caverns don't feel eroded away at all. But I know this is not true. This is self-doubt rearing its ugly head, a conditioned response of narcissistic trauma. The conditioning that has occurred over decades must not only be unlearned, but replaced by something new. I don't know what that newness will be.

Some days its walking meditation. Others its stoic wisdom or affirmations by Shi Heng Yi.

I'm not stopping moving forward, understanding there will be down days and that doesn't undo all of the realization, commitment, and progress I've made rewriting my personal narrative.

I don't want others to stop either. That's why I'm here. So like minded and like intentioned women can continually reinforce their worth outside the confines of what others engrain into their beings as valuable, worth loving, and qualifying for salvation, love, and acceptance.

There are insights and strategies out there for moving forward, but we're not cookies, cut into the same shapes and sizes. One size does not fit all.

That's why I'm here.

I want to create a space where women can share what has and hasn't worked for them. I will continue to research and share that research by the experts who have worked tirelessly to help sufferers of narcissistic trauma and controlling organziations.

But we are not traveling this sea of turmoil alone.

There's a lot to unpack. But that leaves plenty of space for growth!!

Together we will forge a community of women teeming with insight into how to move forward with confidence after experiencing narcissistic trauma.